The winter hibernation thing is getting a hold on me even earlier this year. I just don't feel like going anywhere or doing much of anything outside of my house now that I have it to myself once again. I am feeling a bit isolated socially but I can't seem to muster up the energy to do anything, like play music or go out and sing. There is a jam I could go to tonight and I tell myself I "should" just to get out of the house, but it is just sooooo easy to hole up here. There isn't even snow on the ground yet and I'm acting like it's the middle of winter!
I guess I am feeling very tired lately. I do need to remember that I am still battling the effects of a nasty cold, work is getting even more strenuous as the holidays draw near, customer service is draining, and I've been spending a lot of time on my little business. It is hard for me to create balance in my life, it always has been. I'm a little worried that my habit of isolating so much is really taking a hold and toll on me but getting up the mental energy to do anything about it seems really impossible right now, tonight.
How do you stop from spiraling into old patterns when it feels insurmountable to do anything to change them? I'm pretty sure I am going to have another yet Netflix night, just me and the cat huddled under my cozy down quilt...I'm not sure I know if there is an answer, because most of the time I am pretty okay just being this way...