I was just reading Margene's thread about aloneness, relationships, etc. and some things struck a chord with me.
As some of you may know, I work a "second shift" in a library, which makes it very hard for me to have activities outside of work. I'm in grad school (yes, I did quit, but went back after four days, long story), married, have pets and have a low level of energy. Often I feel lonely and wish I could go to lunch or for coffee with a friend.
However, I think I like the IDEA better than the reality. Some of you may remember that I was in a book group for nearly 20 years. We get together about once a year now, or I might have a very rare lunch with a member. One of the members (who I have literally not seen in YEARS) has suddenly decided to invite all of us over to her house this weekend. I started out feeling enthusiastic about it, but now I'm like, "Meh. I don't wanna go." Maybe it was the email that said "if you don't mind my messy house, nosy kids or cat hair." I live in a messy house, I don't like kids or cats. So I'm thinking of opting out.
At this point in my life (age 50), I wonder what place friends really play. I did enjoy a conversation with someone from my master's program this afternoon; it really put me in a good mood. But some friendships, I may have outgrown. My spouse is my best friend. I'm also close to my sister tho we mostly communicate online.
Does this make sense?