I managed to make a friend via FB. Geerti is in Germany and I am in USA. We shared conversations often, not everyday but once to several times a week. When I took my trip to Italy last year, she went along in a virtually supportive way asking me to check in, where was I, etc. I had a great internet connection all over Sicily so I kept in touch with people while I was traveling. She sent me a hidden money pouch and was supportive in every way. We talked about many topics and over the years, I sent a card or two each year.
She became quite ill and had a major surgery for the back due to a fracture and is struggling with all kinds of back pain. The problems stem from inactivity and age. She is in her 70s. As it is a internet friendship, I realized something was up when she disappeared from communications. A mutual friend helped us make a connection and we chatted often via Whatsapp. Well, I sent her a gift once she got back home and that's where the problem started. I got her a coloring book, pencils, chocolate bar and some stones meant to aid in bones protection from a new age shop. When she got the package, she showed me photos, colored a picture and seemed to enjoy the surprise. A day or two later, she saw the postage and started to chastise me for costs, why did I sent this, I don't really want it, it was too much, save your money, on and on pretty much saying she would be happier had I not sent it. I understand and don't It felt too strong and quite rejecting. I said I was shocked and hurt at the reaction. It was meant in complete kindness and I enjoyed sending it. She kept at it saying no, I don't want gifts, all my friends know this, it is too bad I am upset at her preference I have to accept her wishes. Well, it is strong language and she kept liking and commenting on my FB page. I said it was confusing to me and didn't understand her logic.
I realize she is in recovery from back surgery still and looks like facing big decisions and choices on self care and the future. But, it feels like she is taking out some frustration on me here. I am still shocked at her words and I asked her to leave me alone now. I don't know what to say. It felt like bad manners to dislike so strongly my attempt to share affection. I don't know if we can repair the damage. Strong words went back and forth.
I shared lots of confidences, personal ups an downs, it felt like real true relationship. I was planning to go back to Europe next year and thought to stop and visit her in Frankfurt. Now, she doesn't want to talk at all. Should I let it go? This not wanting gifts never came up, I had no idea. She said she did not like getting gifts because they clutter up the house and than she has to get rid of them. She often has young children visit. If she didn't want the coloring book, I thought the kids would. I am puzzled about how to move on.