whew, getting into the piles of papers that cause me so much anxiety. However I am doing well! I have 2 grocery bags of old papers that can go into the trash, and I bought new file folders so that I can get better files. I have re-used the files so many times that the tabs are worn down. I started this by writing out about 7-8 statements that tend to come up and cause even more distress. That was very helpful. I have decided that I am one third procrastinator/anxiety and two thirds lack of time and support. The same is true for my work, some things I procrastinate because I don't think I can do it perfect enough or want to always improve on rather than getting it done.
I am finding a middle way today, there was no way I could file without new folders, however cleaning out and replacing at least half my files is too much. Perfecting my filing system would be nice, not today. Here is my ongoing saga of realizations around paperwork and bills
* I won't get it perfect, sigh, or finished, it is ongoing and imperfect
* it helps to have a goal, such as paying off my last debt, but a positive one would be great
* I am not so bad at it,