I read this and this was the love letter I needed to read and think about my man. Because I was bitterly thinking about how the "honeymoon" lasts about as long as a credit card "grace period".Then I realize he is the person I think I have been waiting for my whole life and that I CAN accept every part of him
Because things are hard and I can't help wondering if it's even worth it. Health issues are not the problem, spendiness isn't even the problem (and that seems a very minor problem indeed *if* you have the income to sustain it without debt). The problem is he has an exploitive job with 10-11 hour days 5 days a week, plus half days Saturday, with a very hostile environment with constant verbal abuse going on all day at work. And then since he has some tendency to depression anyway the at times (uh Sunday night, know what I mean) crushing depression about the situation. Plus great difficulty finding a better job. Economic hopelessness is a hard thing to deal with as well!!! It's very hard.
And we also took a hike, not far from civilization (20 minutes and we could be back to civilization by the direct route, although that would be going over brush so the trail is better really), and he got traumatized because he flashed back to being lost as a kid and I had to think about "which way is the trail". Not really how I wanted the hike to go. But emotional sensitivity is one of the aspects that showed very early on (when he was talking about how much a play he saw affected him etc.) and one of the reasons I was drawn to him (it helps I'm NOT touchy feely myself, far less so than the average woman probably, as two people like that might not work).