I went to my meditation last night. It was better than I expected and I am not in that funky place so much. The person I had an issue with shared that she is dealing with depression so that is probably why I have not heard from her. I got to be a little more honest than usual and it felt good.
So there is this guy who I look forward to seeing. He has been off and on for several years but really consistent the last year. He admits he screwed things up in his life and is working hard. One of the things he has shared is some serious loneliness as he is focusing on his meditation practice and living well. I think he surprises people because he really knows his stuff and also looks rough around the edges. I have talked to him a lot, he is not someone who needs to be rescued or taken care of, just dealing with the same crap as the rest of us (with some larger screw ups than some of us, but not unusual in our group). And I think I am attracted to him, which is even hard to admit, like I have admitted to no one at this point.
So I am going to just invite him to coffee, we have talked about it with the topic of loneliness. Not sure about this, but also life is too short.