Heart daughter is doing somewhat better.
i am in over my head with my students.
[i posted a lot of details about that but then felt uncomfortable because if someone who worked at my job read it they would probably know who I am, not because of misconduct or child identifying details - although I guess that same person would know who the children are too. Basically - The kids have problems I am not equipped to handle. We do not have staff trained to handle these problems. Sometimes I feel like I make the problems worse simply by not knowing how to help when help is sought.]
i am staying home all day today. I am going to focus on my critters and my clay. I started a new class from a fantastic teacher and he gave us a lot of homework.
i have to remember the whole story about the starfish. The boy cannot throw them all back. He will have to rest. Some of the starfish aren’t going to make it and that is not his fault. And he will be most effective if he picks up only the starfish he has the best chance of helping.
Triage doesn’t always mean starting with the person in the worst condition. Sometimes you look at the tools you have and the problem that needs to be solved and you move on. I am neither a surgeon nor a chaplain. Most of the time I feel like the guy who grabbed the medic’s half used gear and kept running after the medic was killed.
clay. Chickens. Maybe fire.