Here is my next step in supporting my health. After processing a lot of the last couple weeks, realizing i am walking on eggshells a lot of the time, and then sleeping on it i am going with radical sel accceptance of my artsy self. Really there is no other way to go forward. I could puT my nose down and just keep micromanaging to avoid doing something wrong. Or maybe by really lovong myself i can build things up. Meanwhile the world really has sh** stacked against us. So being perfectly organized won't prevent all of this.
I am also a little concerned that the stress of the last couple weeks has me in a hypo manic state. I am going to call dr, i don't have a regular counselor. I just don't know when i am in it. I am not spending money or quitting my job so it is managed.