I have been doing a lot of work on changes, small ones and checking in a lot on how I am resisting the change that I want in ways. The big changes are around voice and creative work.
The dream stars Keanu Reeves as the angry, murderous husband, and me as the newly pregnant wife. Basically he had every intent to kill me by pushing me down a wooded, muddy ravine. He kicked me square in the chest. The reason was that I was pregnant and he didn't want that. As soon as I got to the bottom there were rescue workers and at the top police officers to arrest him. It was a very intense dream, feeling that I was literally facing death for being pregnant.
In dreams things mean other things, no way am I pregnant, but I am doing a lot more creatively. In addition to the Maker Faire I am doing a lot more dharma writing, study and sharing. I feel there are doors that are being eased open. Many many years ago I was writing seriously, I had a regular time, a group and got through half a novel. My ex was losing it, really. He was doing different things to sabotage my writing while telling everyone how great it was. That was a major factor in the choice to divorce, and then he really attacked for a long time after. Being a single mom and then having all the impact of the recession I did not write for a long time, or do much else besides small crafts. So there is a real fear in there to face around doing creative work and having bad things happen. Hopefully this dream is working part of it out, but it is one of those dreams you remember forever.