I wasn't sure if this belonged here, or in Family Matters & Relationships. I am so disappointed and kind of angry. I had a scheduled appt. today with a therapist, and her office called me at 8:30 to cancel (she's sick). I made this appointment a month ago. The only reason I am going to this woman is because I get four free visits before the end of '17 through my Employee Assistance Program (if I can squeeze them in). Here's a bit of a backstory.
I saw her for five sessions last year, two of which were with my husband. I cannot remember her telling me anything useful whatsoever, just listening to my tales of woe and shaking her head and saying, "Oh, frugalone..." in a sad voice. When she saw us as a couple, she had some advice for my spouse about dealing with his problems that affect both of us. Not to sound snotty, but we're both pretty intelligent and and were in therapy (together and separately) for a number of years, and we're also middle-aged, and so...well...this advice was not news to either of us. (e.g. 12-step programs, ACOA).
So I stopped going. But things have not gotten better, nothing has really changed (even thought my spouse and I have talked about our issues many many times). Recently, our stress level went way up due to a lawsuit with a trouble-making neighbor. I've been so stressed out that I have constant chatter in my head about just running away and how much I hate just about everything about my life, except maybe my pets. I have been angry constantly at my spouse. My job is OK--just bores the living crap out of me and makes me wonder "is this it until retirement?"
I should also add I quit taking my SSRI in the summer, hoping my vacationing libido would return, but it has not. Which, I understand, can be a perfectly normal symptom of menopause. I have started another SSRI (a different one) but it's only been a day.
So...anyways...I do have an option of calling a friend's therapist, but it will not be free. I am also on the ACA exchange and have no idea whether 1) their firm will accept my insurance plan; and 2) what the heck it will cost me even if they do. Currently, our plan (which ends Dec. 31) pays $90 a visit--which is why I'm trying to squeeze in the Free Four. I'm also entitled to another Free Four in 2018.
OK, so, the advice questions are:
1. I couldn't get another appt. till three weeks from now. How do I deal with this sh*t in the meantime? I've been feeling like I'm barely hanging on.
2. Should I call my friend's therapist and see what the deal is there?
3. Spouse has offered to talk to me about whatever is bothering me. But I feel like "we've had this conversation before" and the particular situations worrying me do not change. I'm not trying to paint him with a black brush either. He's a very good person, but he's got issues, as they say. I've tried "acceptance" and to be honest, I don't even know what it means. To me it sounds like giving up in despair. Should I try yet again to talk to him?
Anyway, I've gone on long enough here. Thank you for listening.