I had a very quiet weekend, and lately I have had several a-ha moments. As many of you know my health problem is literally all in my held (and just as real as anything else). One a-ha moment was that this anxious, hyper awareness of everything I have done wrong, all my mistakes and all the well-intentioned goofs is an opportunity. I have been waking up Monday morning by 3 am with anxiety of everything I have done wrong. So how to work with this,
I started tracking my thoughts, especially the ones that I want to avoid. When I am home or somewhere it is okay I have been writing them down. My hope is by just noting and writing I can get some clarity and relief. My stress is pretty high with looking for a job and that uncertainty, and the anxiety could affect how well I do in interviews or applying for jobs, etc.
I don't know if others have done this, or if you think it is helpful