and so far feel okay about it!
Had my bi-monthly check in with supervisor, he wanted to meet in person which is generally a bad sign. It was okay until he brought up one thing he had asked me for and it took awhile to get it to him. It is a brand new thing to me with no direction or template, but should be simple. So he started to suggest a write up and I was NOT okay. I pointed out how I had set up my payment tracker sheet, submitted all my payments correctly with documentation, set up the online system, and btw had been asking for months on how to do this, but I handled it between us and not his supervisor. The only thing is that I apparently did not send a balance sheet. At some point I mentioned that the giant list of tasks that our camp days require are nowhere on the bi-monthly check in, that my data and tracker I have been primarily accountable for over the last 5 years are nowhere on our check in agenda. These are things that are 100%, every month. Then I told him I have insomnia and regular 10-12 hour days (salary not overtime). My mind does tend to get fuzzy after 9 hours, go figure. However I still had tears, I will probably regret something however I just really needed to stand up for myself. I said at the end that I had some positives to share but we were out of time so I needed to go.
I saw my old supervisor in the hall, I had asked her for a reference. She asked me how the job search was going right there, and no one was around so I answered. I need to do more but I spend most weekends sick half the time. My work friend let me vent on the driving back to site. How hard would his job be if he actually had to teach any of us our jobs? We are all very experienced so all he has to do is check lists on us. If I left tomorrow there is a list of 10 things he would have to teach my assistant to get through the first month. There are just so many tasks that he can take for granted we have handled very well. There are so many articles out there about not being perfect, yet when it comes down to it the 100 tasks are not balancing out what he feels is more important. As a boss that is his right, but it is also my right to leave. Considering how amazingly low his survey scores are I can't imagine I am the only one feeling similarly.
Good news is that I saw if I quit they pay out my 30 days of vacation time if I leave the district!