It has been a little while since I checked in, and here it is
* I made one big mistake this winter season, I am on an improvement plan for it, I can't really argue, at least I didn't get fired
* I disclosed a little of what I have been struggling with, basically that I was struggling to begin with, seeking help
* I am renewing my teaching license, the fingerprints are being processed right now
* There is a teacher job fair today that I took time off work for, and feel okay about (didn't research all the positions and schools but have resumes and cover letters)
* I feel so stressed every day about the perception that I am making a mistake, conscious or unconscious I feel my boss is basically after me, but that has been all year, before this my biggest mistakes were slightly being late on things however I still got write ups for them and the reputation of being defiant long before my mistake
* I had a payroll thing he told me about in our last check in, he said that the payroll person had contacted him, She will contact me directly if she has a question usually, but I called her and she said she had not contacted him at all, and he had not contacted her, so a lie or major confusion?
* he told me to change something in our last meeting on a flyer (related to my mistake), I did it in front of him, I got an email the next day pointing it out, cc'ing his supervisor and saying if it was not changed there would be disciplinary action
* he said a nice thing about some of the serious behavior issues I updated him on, my assistant said he should have said things like this all year
My gut feeling today says RUN! but most likely the teacher jobs will not be available until fall. I realized that I can get cashed out for vacation but I will need to cover health insurance from that. So planning and planning, I would be more comfortable sticking it out through the school year if I didn't feel this threat, nice to my face and follow up email that says disciplinary action