I have talked to 4 different people to calm the heck down, and took my restless leg medication so I have some hope of sleeping. I was finally starting to sleep again without pacing for an hour in the middle of the night. It has taken weeks to get back to this point.
I got an email from my supervisor and it included that there may be disciplinary action. OMFG! He is on a cruise for a week so I can stress the entire time.
The deal is that I have one of those camp days coming up that was getting close to the limit for registration. The registration needs to be closed manually. I called my registration person like I do for all things, and in the conversation she did ask if I asked him yet. I said no. Then she asked me what I wanted to do a couple times, we talked it through and eventually I said 'okay just do it'. Then I talked to my supervisor later and told him about it, talked it through, he asked questions and I answered them. I thought we were okay, after all he has not been part of any of these conversations about my enrollments all year.
Then I get an email that says I know I cannot make decisions about my program alone, it captured part of the conversation I had with the registration person, and then said disciplinary action was possible. He has NEVER given me a list of what needs to be approved or not by him, I have followed ALL directions concerning camp days including moving sites, moving staff, staying within staffing levels, etc. If I was not authorized to make this decision then WHY did they change it based on what I said. I was just calling to point out that we were close to the limit and I was concerned about getting too many kids.
I talked to my job coach who now works for my district, and we are a hot mess in so many ways. She was just put on a plan herself, and she has over 20 years experience. I am going to look for a weekend job immediately and am considering looking outside of education or at least our district right away. I can't take this anymore. My mental health is kinda crumbling fast, I have the DR for a phone call tomorrow and the counselor on Friday.