Originally Posted by
CathyA
Life's always been a challenge for me. I've had depression since I was born, then had a bad family experience. I've always had lots of aches and pains. Most tests were always normal.
I have fibromyalgia, bad osteoarthritis, sleep apnea, IBS, peripheral neuropathy, etc., etc., etc. But I always kept busy and loved doing things.
In November, I woke up one day and everything was tons worse, along with much worse peripheral neuropathy. Up until recently I've really liked my internal medicine doc, but lately, I feel he has me pegged as "just" fibromyalgia and that's all it is. DH orders and runs tests for me, and they are always normal. The doctor intimated that they were unnecessary and he wouldn't have run them.
I eat fairly healthily. I can't do much walking because of my legs (bad knees), but I still try to get things done.
I saw a new neuro doc and he's running some vitamin levels.......but no other tests.
I feel so damn sick every day. I try to power through, but I feel like I'm dying. This week, DH ran tons of tests.........all pretty much normal. I was disappointed. He said it's a GOOD thing! .....but I want to feel better again and was hoping something was wrong that could be fixed.
I'm looking for a psychologist to see, but how do you guess which one is best? Seems like many of the reviews online, half the people say "this person is awesome", and the other half say "This guy should be put in prison." I guess I just have to take chances, but I'm so sick of feeling sick, I don't have much patience.
I've really lost confidence in most doctors. I'm open to the possibility of having some somatization disorder, but I just can't believe that.......when there's so many things I love doing, but am in too much pain to do them. And I just feel SICK.
Maybe for many years I didn't have the bad fibromyalgia I thought I had, but have it now?
Has anyone else noticed that it takes forever to get into a doctor now?
Anyhow......thanks for listening. Yes, I'm very depressed, but I really think it's from the pain. I have really dragged my feet on going on another SSRI-type drug. I feel physically ill and it pisses me off when docs don't make sure it isn't anything else, before they want you on a mind-altering drug that can be hell to get used to, and worse hell to ever come off of.
Anyone else have fibromyalgia? And I have heard how bad osteoarthritis can be........but this feeling of sickness seems like something else. It seems overwhelming to me to even do my gardening this year, which isn't like me.
I'm really bummed.