I feel like i am feeling awesome, and then i went clothes shopping for my retreat and that i lostweight weight. Going into even a quiet store was a lot. I had a good experience, talked to the cashier and was normal. I couldn't buyb much because i just feel like i am faking normal.
However i realize how much i have been holding it together and why 4 people have offered a leave over the last few months. I randomly close my eyes when the sensory overload gets high for example. So i am actually thinking about going back earlier with half days to work into being around people.
Meanwhile I remembered something i did while i took over the site, which was have the 2 new employees complete the 3 hours of online training. Since the computer cart we were expecting was locked up by the principal i had to let them use mine which was a reason to get behind on parent phone calls (all in a google doc and no printer access). That made me feel better.