Thank you ANM, my middle f the night thoughts are focusing on some ways that I was REALLY not supported and I really don't want to go back. However I am concerned about the job market as well, if I was confident about getting another job soon I would leave but I am not.
I once ran into someone who used to work for us. She had some crisis and had a site that needed her, and no one showed up to sub or help. She is still talking about it years later. So this happens and it has kept on happening where it is all put back on the PS, and I am really scared of how it will be.