sigh, integrity again, good and bad ya know.
I have a connection with a woman who has a non-profit to teach mindfulness, She is just now getting it back up and running after a break. It has been great to talk to her about my role and earning a side income. I would be something like the Practice in Nature teacher. It is weird because she really knows nothing about the Buddhist side of all of this, but I was just excited to get to do the work. I would be taking adults out to nature to teach them how to practice in nature, something I have done literally for the 30 years I have been practicing and very purposefully the last 6 years including retreats.
Her funding plan is to go to the weed industry and ask them to donate to the non-profit. It seemed a little weird, I suggested the healthy living grant money through the pot taxes that I have worked with before but those of course are a lot of work. So we are moving along, and I talk to my close friend about this to get some feedback. Well duh, the 5th precept is no intoxicants, and right livelihood is very clear on specific industries to avoid. As soon as she brought it up all my uncertainty was clear. Seriously pot shops funding mindfulness. I am sure it will work but I can't do it.
It was already strange to go to events she hosted for mindfulness teachers and have both meat and alcohol. That wasn't so weird except when this one couple acted like I was from outer space when I said I didn't drink or eat meat. It is really not that weird,
So I will have to email or meet her in person, I will much better knowing why I was so uneasy now.