And things keep coming at me: I just had my yearly mammogram yesterday and they called today saying they want me to come in and have another one because the doctor saw something suspicious. It might be nothing, just the usual calcifications that had been under observation a few years ago back in Michigan ( though I have had a mammogram since I moved to New Mexico - I cannot find last years result anywhere). Just enough to kind of freak me out today, especially for some reason after listening to the hearings all day regarding Bret Kavanaugh's Supreme Court nomination.
I am feeling incredibly raw right now. Last night my ex-husband passed along the actual autopsy reports regarding my daughter's death. Even though I have known of the results for a week from the funeral home, I couldn't stop myself from reading all the clinical notes, even knowing to do so would send me into a fresh bout of sadness.
Just having a really hard day.