Well it has been an interesting couple of days. I have a good friend D, who I adore and it is totally a friend thing. Okay I do probably like him more but I am fine with friends. He called me on Friday to meet at the First Friday art walk. Even with 2 fairs I said yes. I had so much fun. It was a grownup thing for me, but he did question that since I was wearing a unicorn baseball cap. He is this interesting mix of noticing little things like how my hair looks and not giving off any romantic vibes.
Then there is J. He called and left me a message about going hiking today and also said he hoped I was having a good fair. Um, I was very confused. If he knew I was working a fair then why ask me to hike? After the fair I texted him and said I was going to meditation.
I got to meditation and D walks in, very cool. We chatted for awhile and then sat. Sometime in the middle J comes in after hiking apparently. In the announcement time D asked kif anyone was willing to share any resources on a topic and J raised his hand to answer and talk at the end. So now they are connected. At the end of meditation I talk to D, he remembers that I go to work early and I say I am going to leave right away. Then J comes over for a hug, and I give him one with lots of space. During that D catches my eye with a little smile, he could see some of the dynamic. J who is about 20 years older obviously feels different about me than I do about him. I left them talking about the topic in common.
In any case it was an interesting moment. I am going to make time to talk directly to J on Monday or Tuesday since he told me he is attracted to me and I want be clear that I don't share his affection.