Ok, I am terrible at self discipline. The same factors that make me want to make bad choices make me too worn down to stop myself.
dh is usually pretty good at helping me, but for some reason he has focused in on convincing me that I still look good and keeps convincing me I can “cheat” on my goals when I’m having a hard day (I think he’s going for the quick happy). But honestly, lately they are all hard days.
so I’m looking for (a) partner(s) who would also like to improve eating and moving behaviors (I don’t care if you want to gain/lose weight, but I would like to track my progress here) who will help keep me accountable.
i weigh 155. My knees hurt. My hip hurts. I don’t like the way my body feels when I move and I don’t like the way it looks naked. I seem to have gotten used to the pain and dh is undermining the last one, and not moving is a bad but too common solution. Also, many of my clothes don’t fit.
i need to do something active every day. Yesterday I cleaned stalls for 2.5 hours.
i need to eat better. This morning I had whole grain hot cereal with a tablespoon of honey and I remembered to take my vitamin. It was very tempting to eat brownies for breakfast. Dh left them on the counter. But I didn’t. Mornings are my strongest times.