Cute photos.
Okay, I need some support and this looks like a good place. I know KNOW that wheat, dairy and SUGAR are not good for me. For about three weeks I have been flirting with the wheat and dairy, with predictable results....body aches, joint pain on waking, interrupted sleep, brain fog and allergic rhinitis. These symptoms are much LESS than what I was experiencing before I went off those things but back then I had no idea that my diet was creating such troubles for me. Anyway, I seem to behave as if these things are addictive; if I have some I want and crave and seek out and EAT more. If I make sure I have enough protein, interesting vegetables and good fats, I can sometimes slow myself down but I have not been able to have a "clean" day in over a week and I don't think the next three days are going to do it for me either.
I am disappointed in myself because I had thought I had gotten past the self-delusion phase; that those holiday cookies and fudge were really not for me, but nobody else has been eating them. I didn't need to make them at all: DH is planning on NO cookies until The Day and then he will be very moderate. And DSD is with her mom, so this is really all about my food issues.
I guess I need to remind myself of no shame, no blame, and start from here but how? Or should I start from Wednesday? It is too easy and an old pattern to just give up and eat whatever arrives for the next five or six days but that will put me even further behind where I am now (still needing to lose five more ....maybe more than that now....pounds.
Arrgggghhhhh! Sorry for the angst. I am sure it will all be fine and I am grateful that this is my complaint. Life is pretty darn good if your problem is that you have too much good food to eat.