Hi, folks: Those of you who are familiar with my "employment odyssey" will know that I am considering looking for another job. I'm currently underemployed and underpaid. I am not sure I really want to go back into the field I was in before (PR/marketing) as it was really a bad experience. I'm not sure if it was the work, me, or what. A former co worker described it as a "toxic workplace," so who knows...

Anyway...when I sit down and try to apply to another job online, I get anxious. Anxious so that I can't even think straight enough to write a cover letter. Right now, I'm trying to apply somewhere, and I'm kind of a wreck. I *really* can't stand going through the whole interview process, the answering of questions like "why should I hire you?", the scrutiny, the waiting (will they or won't they hire me?). I'm not even enthusiastic about this particular company. It's a dental supply house. Like, whoopee. Plus my friend used to work there and he had all sorts of nasty things to say about it (he may be biased, of course).

All kinds of things go through my head. Like, what if the new place is worse than where I'm at? What if their health insurance is worse than what I have now?

It took me two years to find the job I have. It's not *horrible* or anything...but there are a number of reasons why I think it would be best if I leave.

How do I cope with all this? I actually have chest pains now, after writing this post!

P.S. Is there any way I can possibly find out what their insurance costs are, before I even apply?