not what i expected for spring break

[Zoe Girl]

So it is the first day of spring break and i was supposed to be getting on a plane about now to see my best friend for a long weekend. i started feeling kinda icky on wednesday and thought that was also because my dd went into rehab that i was distracted. By yesterday i knew i was sick, the kind that often leads to lots of medication when asthma gets triggered. i called my friend and warned her, she said i could go to the dr there but i had to say i did not want to be away from home really sick. i felt really bad to say that, but with my food issues i don't feel great having someone else take care of me at times, it is so much work to send someone else to the store. i fell asleep at 8:15 and got up this morning with no voice, that decided it.

i also have a couple days next week that are my scheduled work days and i would be back in time for that, but the building is 100% off limits. So i brought home a huge box of work for those days. we are having a planning meeting for an after school earth day celebration with several partners and didn't have space to meet, eek. But i rented space at the library across the street and have to bring all the planning materials with me instead of counting on them being in my room. i ended up yesterday figuring that out and packing it up to bring instead of packing my suitcase or other things to get ready for the trip

And just now i got a call from my dd. she said they don't keep her in for 30 days unless this has been an issue many times so they will help her make after care follow up and she may have to leave the rehab as soon as Monday. wow, i do really want to be in town for that. i was going to be gone through tuesday night which isn't that long but i do feel better being an hour away instead of in another state.

i really don't feel bad overall, it just all changed and it is all okay. i may have more summer time this year to see my friend. i am looking at some work stuff that will take a huge stress away if i get done and some study i can do while i still take it easy as a sickie. and if i rest a LOT maybe i won't end up on meds this time, ...

[Rachel]

Sorry you ended up sick during your spring break, Zoe. I am often sick on vacations, so aggravating! It's good you will be near your DD when she gets out of rehab. Take care, and rest up.

[ApatheticNoMore]

And just now i got a call from my dd. she said they don't keep her in for 30 days unless this has been an issue many times so they will help her make after care follow up and she may have to leave the rehab as soon as Monday. wow, i do really want to be in town for that.

ugh. cheapness. so we'll just wait for the addict to relapse several times before we'll even give decent care (I guess some HMO somewhere has figured out it's cheaper). Yes, it's happened for awhile, probably getting worse now that rehabs are guaranteed to be covered by insurance (though of course they were very expensive without insurance). My sibling ended up in the end in a really expensive rehab, and they got a significant time there (though even then I forget whether it was the full 30). The whole idea of that stuff being fixed quickly doesn't work, so you can get them through the worst aspects of physical withdrawal, but provide any start (and even 30 days is just a start) to living a different life? (without the substance)

[Zoe Girl]

yeah ANM, it was kinda too good to be true. i was hoping they could help get into the high probability of her being bipolar 2 but not in less than a week. they did get her sleeping meds. i have a feeling the reason she does not have her better job anymore is something around sleeping and not getting there, she falls asleep as late as 5 am often. i was super scared of the physical withdrawal part for her and i know she wasn't 100% quitting because of it so at least she has that. if she goes through this several times the biggest concern i have is how it will mess with jobs and career possibilities with the ups and downs. the world is not very forgiving.

i am still sick here, raw throat, some sneezing and a little cough. i have this wonderful lack of reality when i am sick. i think since i have this 'time off' i am going to do certain things. All things that you don't do because your body just needs to rest and do stupid nothing.

[CathyA]

Sorry about your illness, Zoe Girl. Some people seem to always get sick when it's their vacation time. Must have something to do with the let-down of stress that somehow messes up their immune system. Sorry!