Zoe Girl
7-11-15, 1:46pm
that is the big deal with buddhism and mindfulness, you aren't changing the externals all the time (maybe sometimes you can) or even the mind states but you are changing the relationship to what is happening. i just had 2 a-has in the last week that may help with a recent bout of stress and resulting depression.
* i went to visit a friend and had a great trip including getting a lot of hand me downs of things like colombia pants that could be for hiking but nice enough for work. wow, those are not cheap. i have been so frustrated with my weight and shape lately so i struggled with some icky feelings about how she lost weight and looks and feels great. then i realized i am the size i am in the perimenopause timing which is a big factor, my friend was this size without that factor. She just wasn't exercising or eating well. oh, duh. so my negative feelings about my weight are just feelings,
* work is horrible! i love my site but the department is bleeding staff between quitting and layoffs, at one of our last meetings someone used the f-word, seriously! i made a mistake which has been keeping me awake, the stress that has been building the last 6 months along with negative boss are just wearing me down and i am getting worse at my job. and i am concerned about my image in the department. then i thought through some other people and the mistakes i see, how i have been one of the people routinely interviewed for positions (and there are very few who are), and how i have not actually used swear words at work, So i need to improve but i am not the only one who is just crappy right now.
i am carrying a note with me everything that simply says 'All Mindfulness' to remind me to go back to that as a guide for what i do in the middle of chaos.
* i went to visit a friend and had a great trip including getting a lot of hand me downs of things like colombia pants that could be for hiking but nice enough for work. wow, those are not cheap. i have been so frustrated with my weight and shape lately so i struggled with some icky feelings about how she lost weight and looks and feels great. then i realized i am the size i am in the perimenopause timing which is a big factor, my friend was this size without that factor. She just wasn't exercising or eating well. oh, duh. so my negative feelings about my weight are just feelings,
* work is horrible! i love my site but the department is bleeding staff between quitting and layoffs, at one of our last meetings someone used the f-word, seriously! i made a mistake which has been keeping me awake, the stress that has been building the last 6 months along with negative boss are just wearing me down and i am getting worse at my job. and i am concerned about my image in the department. then i thought through some other people and the mistakes i see, how i have been one of the people routinely interviewed for positions (and there are very few who are), and how i have not actually used swear words at work, So i need to improve but i am not the only one who is just crappy right now.
i am carrying a note with me everything that simply says 'All Mindfulness' to remind me to go back to that as a guide for what i do in the middle of chaos.