too many ideas

[Zoe Girl]

oh dear, it is craft fair season and that is on my list of side incomes i really want to do. And i am not there yet at all. it is on my list of side things i have put my mind and some effort towards and simply haven't produced. there are lots of legitimate reasons, one is too many grand ideas, but still i hit this point where i feel that i am not getting it and it is a personal issue with my issues around money, success and attention. i realize i still have some anxiety issues around too much attention or success based on marriage safety issues. the only time it was close to violent was when i brought successful type of attention to myself.

i have a job coach and we have been working on my current job mostly, i had the goal of working on mediation when i first went to her. i wanted to start by earning enough to pay off the training i invested in by the time my child support ran out. i don't have my 100 volunteer hours yet even though that is not a requirement. i still feel like i want that to feel confident. i have spent a lot of time over the last year on my women's facilitator and leadership group which i didn't expect to translate into anything specific. i have the mindfulness training and that as well may not translate immediately. meanwhile i kinda thought it would be simpler than it is to put things on etsy and do a craft fair or 2 as part of building a side business, i do a lot of crochet just as a hobby anyway so i am not adding work there. But i need to market to waldorf type schools for the dragon puppets i think.

october is going to be the month all the side trainings and retreats are done and i need to focus on either just doing my job, which is a big job, or building one side project. my choice would be to market crafts through the holiday season and then work on mediation in January. i will talk to my coach, just chatting this out.

[razz]

I get worn out just reading about all you are trying to accomplish. Be kind to yourself.

[sweetana3]

It sounds like what should be a side relaxing hobby is turning into a time and attention sucking side business. If it takes your time and attention and energy away from your primary job it is not the time to do it. You should probably focus on the improvements needed for the primary income producing job right now since your review was not stellar.

Also, are all your other financial needs, like taxes and bill paying, resolved completely and current? No need to respond, but if you are not current on these, put aside the side business idea until your life is in control.

How about journaling all your "grand ideas" and noting when and where the sales opportunities are until you can do some more investigation. This fall, if you have time, you can investigate and talk to people in the business or running craft booths for ideas.

[Ultralight]

I find that having too many ideas blanks me out and I don't really run with any of them.

It is hard though, because so many ideas are enticing!

[Zoe Girl]

thanks all, i am going to put off for awhile. i have a retreat starting tomorrow so much of my energy is going to getting ready for it (i am a big supporter person in writing the menu and buying groceries) and also just doing my regular job. Last year i was doing great for a long time, really it started to fall apart all around summer camp. So i know i can do it and i think that my supervisors are not interested in keeping me stuck in that low performer category based on my previous years.

home finances are improving, paperwork pretty much caught up, there may be some things still not perfect like i need a good budget but nothing huge.

So mostly i just have a dozen hand crocheted dragon puppets sitting in my closet and i would really like to get them out there this year. potholders and little things can be gifts, just the dragon puppets.