Zoe Girl
10-7-15, 8:51am
over the last year at work we have had so many changes. Last year i really took a stand on some things and it went badly. the administration/operations support system was cracking. it is not totally new however, one year we had no budgets, like no one had a printed budget. we are a major school district and all i could do was go to experienced people and ask if they thought i could spend money in certain ways. last school year i had no registration forms for my students until 5:00 the night before school started (our program starts at 6:30 am). my summer camp was awesome in many ways but the administrative/supervision side of it was a complete bomb. i guess i have never really accepted all this chaos,
starting in may we were losing supervisory staff, out of 6 supervisors 2 left voluntarily. then the district starting shaking people up, 2 long term highly experienced people were just cut. a few other people left which kept the layoffs to just the 2 people. then new people were adjusted into our system. in the process we lost ALL the people who know grants except one accountant. the new people don't know things either and so we are helping them (i have been accused of being over-involved with my families but i know things no one else seems to know). i actually got a good attitude in this change thinking that i could show my skills to new people and get a little career boost. the sign that this is not going well is that i have a staff who is resigning and the HR new person cannot find the form he needs to sign to resign. she asked the HR director and they came back and said i should have it. there is a really old shared document location that i don't have the link for because my computer has been worked on, i just typed something up and had him sign and date it.
i have to write my goals, i have some things i would like to do but there is no way to do them this year in the middle of all this (i have a job coach who is working with me as well). i even passed on applying for a new position that is a half step above mine because i don't think they know what the job is. i am not offering to do anything extra since i usually get turned down. for example i really want to be involved with training the staff, i have excellent feedback on trainings, i joined a committee that involved more than our district and did training for summer staff, and would love to make that my goal. However they have assigned the trainers to the key spots and 3 of them have told me that they don't really want to do it. i have spent 3 years expressing my interest and building this part of my development and no one noticed, the only thing that saves my sanity is that no one seems to know anything going on at this point. major letting go process, and extra hard because i did as much as i could to develop this.
my current goals are to write goals that are pretty basic, stay at my specific site and focus on the great work we are doing, and develop what i want on side projects. i am doing mindfulness in the classroom as a volunteer this year and i love it! i have training and background (and just came off a 10 day retreat). so maybe that will be where my career develops to but i also know most people doing this are volunteering or have it has part of their regular job. i had a couple major ah-ha moments on the retreat however, one is that i am an organized person. i was kitchen manager and got all the menus, food, planning of kitchen work, etc. managed for 10 days (in silence) really well. So no more taking excessive blame in a chaos system. and the other is that i don't have to do this specific job. a big deal when you get into jobs that you deeply care about.
starting in may we were losing supervisory staff, out of 6 supervisors 2 left voluntarily. then the district starting shaking people up, 2 long term highly experienced people were just cut. a few other people left which kept the layoffs to just the 2 people. then new people were adjusted into our system. in the process we lost ALL the people who know grants except one accountant. the new people don't know things either and so we are helping them (i have been accused of being over-involved with my families but i know things no one else seems to know). i actually got a good attitude in this change thinking that i could show my skills to new people and get a little career boost. the sign that this is not going well is that i have a staff who is resigning and the HR new person cannot find the form he needs to sign to resign. she asked the HR director and they came back and said i should have it. there is a really old shared document location that i don't have the link for because my computer has been worked on, i just typed something up and had him sign and date it.
i have to write my goals, i have some things i would like to do but there is no way to do them this year in the middle of all this (i have a job coach who is working with me as well). i even passed on applying for a new position that is a half step above mine because i don't think they know what the job is. i am not offering to do anything extra since i usually get turned down. for example i really want to be involved with training the staff, i have excellent feedback on trainings, i joined a committee that involved more than our district and did training for summer staff, and would love to make that my goal. However they have assigned the trainers to the key spots and 3 of them have told me that they don't really want to do it. i have spent 3 years expressing my interest and building this part of my development and no one noticed, the only thing that saves my sanity is that no one seems to know anything going on at this point. major letting go process, and extra hard because i did as much as i could to develop this.
my current goals are to write goals that are pretty basic, stay at my specific site and focus on the great work we are doing, and develop what i want on side projects. i am doing mindfulness in the classroom as a volunteer this year and i love it! i have training and background (and just came off a 10 day retreat). so maybe that will be where my career develops to but i also know most people doing this are volunteering or have it has part of their regular job. i had a couple major ah-ha moments on the retreat however, one is that i am an organized person. i was kitchen manager and got all the menus, food, planning of kitchen work, etc. managed for 10 days (in silence) really well. So no more taking excessive blame in a chaos system. and the other is that i don't have to do this specific job. a big deal when you get into jobs that you deeply care about.