Zoe Girl
5-25-16, 11:22pm
First of all I am soooo tired, really tired. Our building will be closed for the year on Friday (earlier than other schools due to construction and opening later) so I have to get everything I need for camp for 100+ kids out and moved plus everything I may need to get prepared for next year out and in places I can get to them. Big job, I have some help but really big job. Right now I have boxes in our main storage, in my car, at my house. It always works out but I am amazingly tired with multiple drop dead deadlines. Sigh, my sups are being nice, I am just tired (taking Tuesday off and looking for more ways to take some time off)
So a couple things have had me thinking, maybe there is just something about being in an 'in crowd' to be a leader. I think I have leadership qualities, My peers look to me for support, give me positives. My staff is also very positive. I put in my self review that one staff told me she appreciates that I don't gossip, that she can trust me. She knows a lot of people at other sites so she can compare. When they filled out the sheet for next year they only put my site and don't want to work for anyone else. However I am not in the leadership group, and some leadership qualities don't go over well if you are not in that group (plus I could be more skilled at it, anything takes practice after all). I also saw today a teacher treated so badly she came to me fighting back tears. I have worked with her 3 years, she was a math fellow and worked for me after school and did excellent work. It comes down to test scores and personality, but the principal is the leader and as a result at least 12 teachers out of not quite 40 are leaving. I have a feeling she will be seen as a 'tough leader' rather than anything negative. Our district has more administrators by far than similar districts, and they seem to keep busy creating surveys and tests that increase everyone's workload and justify their jobs, But ultimately they are the leaders and I don't see that changing. Some of them like the principal are just not very nice people.
I am pretty idealistic, at least I think we can work things out and people are basically good, I hate when I have to face the mean-ness of people.
So a couple things have had me thinking, maybe there is just something about being in an 'in crowd' to be a leader. I think I have leadership qualities, My peers look to me for support, give me positives. My staff is also very positive. I put in my self review that one staff told me she appreciates that I don't gossip, that she can trust me. She knows a lot of people at other sites so she can compare. When they filled out the sheet for next year they only put my site and don't want to work for anyone else. However I am not in the leadership group, and some leadership qualities don't go over well if you are not in that group (plus I could be more skilled at it, anything takes practice after all). I also saw today a teacher treated so badly she came to me fighting back tears. I have worked with her 3 years, she was a math fellow and worked for me after school and did excellent work. It comes down to test scores and personality, but the principal is the leader and as a result at least 12 teachers out of not quite 40 are leaving. I have a feeling she will be seen as a 'tough leader' rather than anything negative. Our district has more administrators by far than similar districts, and they seem to keep busy creating surveys and tests that increase everyone's workload and justify their jobs, But ultimately they are the leaders and I don't see that changing. Some of them like the principal are just not very nice people.
I am pretty idealistic, at least I think we can work things out and people are basically good, I hate when I have to face the mean-ness of people.