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Zoe Girl
1-20-17, 12:20am
I really hate state licensing (child care). I had my inspection, we did okay. They have added more to our list of things to do of course, and it is already hard to get it all done. Like it really benefits kids to have more hours I am away from programs and training my staff to write detailed descriptions of all the training I do with them. (we already record our training and put it in categories, do well over the required 15 hours a year, etc) A couple dings as always. One pissed me off because it was a broken fridge thermometer and I know my guy did it but denies everything. Dang it, it broke the day before the visit so I didn't have much time but I replaced it right after so that is okay. The bigger issue is a child's paperwork, and my supervisors response. All details aside, I admitted I had not thought the situation through but was trying to respond to a need from the school. Her tone was cold, no problem solving, like I went through the first year she was my supervisor. I had a kinda freak out later, not with her of course. The bad year came flooding back and my staff was very nice and supportive to me. That is what turned me around today,

I just can't go back to the bad year, so many people were fired or pushed out or simply left because it was horrible. All of the grant support staff are gone, all. I was put in charge of this site almost 5 years ago with no model, no one else had done it before. I do well because I am okay with that, I am very independent and I go directly to the people I need to. My supervisor the first 2 years had never done tuition based sites before, I ran the only tuition and grant blended site. I tried for years to have a conversation and get into what that meant, might have been a fun philosophical exercise but it was really about trying to run the site between program models that were not the same. When I got my new supervisor I tried to tell her about my program, it seems that no one told her what I was doing. She tends to be authoritarian which does not work when you are running something that has never been done before. Now I see that they have taken what I have learned, used it to expand to other sites, increased scholarship programs, included my goal for equity based programming across the board and no one has talked to me.

So good news is that I heard from my well-connected staff that people ask her if I am running a camp before they decide if they want to work. So that is my reputation with staff. And my sup did send me a nice request about something I like to do. I really love to be invited to do things. Still not sure how this is going to play out, but won't hurt to look around for a job in the meantime. But somehow there is a relief, I have been tiptoeing around for almost 2 years trying not to make mistakes, I made one and in the process found my confidence.

rosarugosa
1-20-17, 9:10pm
ZG: So sorry that it was such a bad day. Have you ever considered trying to take your skill set to the corporate world? I'm thinking corporate training programs on mindfulness or something. I know you love working with kids, but maybe you could get a volunteer gig doing that. Just a thought, you could likely find better money almost anywhere outside of early childhood education.

Zoe Girl
1-20-17, 9:49pm
Thank you Rosa, I got a great raise so it is much better money than before. However I haven't hit this point of actually wanting to leave in a long time. I did get 2 positives from my boss today via email and am feeling better. I am working on what to say in my mid-year review that is in the next week. I get in trouble when I am really independent, so maybe we just need to talk about that directly. Still a good idea about going corporate, to the dark side!!

Ultralight
1-21-17, 7:36am
ZG will never leave this job by her own will, no matter how bad it is for her mental and physical health.

rosarugosa
1-21-17, 8:17am
Well it does sound like working with kids is her passion, and I certainly can't say I'm passionate about my corporate HR job, although I do enjoy my job most of the time. I work with the nicest people in the world, and there is a strong atmosphere of mutual respect and cooperation in my department and with the other departments I interact with. I feel valued and respected by my manager, and I hope my team feels the same way about me. I'm compensated decently and I have a good benefits package. I also have two high school interns and every summer I have a college intern under my supervision, so I have the opportunity to do some mentoring with the younger generation. So overall, it's not such a bad gig on the "dark side." :)
On the flip side, there are way too many meetings, lots of corporate red tape, and generally more work to be done than I can accomplish in 50 hours a week. It certainly isn't paradise either!

Zoe Girl
1-21-17, 9:58am
UA, who knows if I will, but I am not real thrilled that you think I wouldn't make that choice. I might fire someone however, or urge him to reconsider his options in other fields or wake the h** up at work. I have quit jobs before and went back to being poor, right now I earn more than you do. I am not letting this force my hand again. Last time we had the very bad year i kinda fell apart, started making more mistakes and mis-read the political climate of work. Punk kid learned to manage up a little!

Rosa, I hear from a lot of people, So we share the workload of red tape that is more than we can do in 50 hours a week and too many meetings. I have a complicated boss relationship and a high workload with too many people needing something from me. And I have a chronic mental illness which responds badly to high workloads.

So what did I do besides talk here and talk to 2 friends. I asked my assistant to handle our next movie night so I can go to an 8 week course after work. I actually checked in with my boss about leaving early one day a week instead of just doing it under the radar. I hit my deadlines and got great feedback from my boss on my goals aligning with the school, I rock at collaboration. I connected with more people on teaching mindfulness so that I can grow my career. And I spent the whole afternoon with the kids in program instead of doing paperwork.

razz
1-21-17, 11:27am
ZG, you will do what is right for you as the need arises. This is what you have done all along and demonstrated your ability to do so.
Acknowledge that and accept it. You know all the decisions that you have made after weighing the consequences. Don't let anyone take away that confidence in your own ability.
If I may offer ,as one super analytical person who analyzes everything to death to another of a similar nature, when you examine your concerns and doubts both here and in your own mind, you are actually sorting out your options and reviewing alternatives before making a decision.

It is who you are, accept and simply be your unique self. That is what I have learned to do.

What you are needing, IMHO, is validation of your unique self as you have provided to your children and your work setting.

Chicken lady
1-21-17, 12:00pm
I kind of agree with UA, except what his words left out was that I see you continuing in the job in spite of negative consequences to you because you feel like the sacrifice is worth it for the work you do. I think if the administration became a significant barrier to your ability to serve your families, you would take your talents elsewhere, where they could do more good. Not necessarily for you.

Zoe Girl
1-21-17, 5:58pm
If I may offer ,as one super analytical person who analyzes everything to death to another of a similar nature, when you examine your concerns and doubts both here and in your own mind, you are actually sorting out your options and reviewing alternatives before making a decision.

It is who you are, accept and simply be your unique self. That is what I have learned to do.


Thank you, I need to just work things out now and then. I think I post some real great stuff too. And I guess it doesn't make a difference if someone thinks I won't leave a bad situation,

rosarugosa
1-21-17, 9:21pm
Sometimes it's nice to just reflect on the fact that you have options, even if you decide that you are where you need to be. It does sound like you have a real passion for working with kids, and perhaps the bureaucracy is just the bad you have to take with the good.

Teacher Terry
1-22-17, 2:26pm
ZG: It is important to love your work and I think you do. That is what is important. YOu would leave if you wanted to. You are a strong woman.

freshstart
1-22-17, 5:25pm
agreed, Teacher Terry