Zoe Girl
8-30-17, 9:29am
Woo hoo, my Buddhist teacher has a Sunday morning call that we affectionately call 'dial a nun', there are about 6-7 of us now who rotate through the weeks to share the job of leading it. So I am doing my 2nd one this coming Sunday. I am pretty nervous, both that a lot of people will come and and that no one will come. Last time I got a good number (the calls tend to be small anyway). It feels like a big deal to me to do these calls, like I know something? The last time I did a practice talk with my group however I had some things I didn't like that I did and the feedback from the group supported that, along with some great things that I had been working on and had progress.
My son last night said that I have really come a long way in this type of work. At 20 he sees a little of how hard I worked and what I did over the years to get to this point. I am usually more hard on myself, I would like to be more of a Buddhist teacher-track. But I have never given up continuing to study and work at moving forward in not just practice but how to express that to others. The usual demons are there, comparing, judging, etc.
On a side note, my staff who is technically in jail was able to return to work yesterday. She has to stay in jail other than when she works. She was telling me that people are super mean, and she already knows a lot about drugs. She was feeling a little shaky of course her first day back, so I think it helped that I shared I facilitate a meditation group that has a lot of people in recovery and some on parole. So I am not as much in a Buddhisty bubble as some.
My son last night said that I have really come a long way in this type of work. At 20 he sees a little of how hard I worked and what I did over the years to get to this point. I am usually more hard on myself, I would like to be more of a Buddhist teacher-track. But I have never given up continuing to study and work at moving forward in not just practice but how to express that to others. The usual demons are there, comparing, judging, etc.
On a side note, my staff who is technically in jail was able to return to work yesterday. She has to stay in jail other than when she works. She was telling me that people are super mean, and she already knows a lot about drugs. She was feeling a little shaky of course her first day back, so I think it helped that I shared I facilitate a meditation group that has a lot of people in recovery and some on parole. So I am not as much in a Buddhisty bubble as some.