Zoe Girl
8-3-11, 9:00am
okay taking a HUGE risk here about this. I have been waiting for a DR appointment for over a month due to scheduling and all for a concern (I am gonna be vague cuz it is private and has a stigma to it). I have a counselor I have been seeing for a year and after struggling with progress on something we did a test that showed a possible other diganoses. I am also now on Kaiser and have never been before. I have been worried about this, looking at possible life long meds, researching alternatives but mostly just hanging on until I could start the process to hopefully feel a lot better.
the appointment is still upsetting me 2 days later. Basically I brought in the test results and the counselor asked me questions and about 3 questions in she started telling me it didn't sound like that diagnoses. Then she suggested other things that I disagreed with. Finaly she told me that she could not do meds that day, well I had not asked for them and if at all possible I would avoid that but I really want to feel better. Just because I am not living on the streets does not mean I don't need support.
The major problems in understanding seem to be that I was a very informed patient and that many of my symptoms are low because of work I have done and 25 years of meditation. It reminds me so much of the time I went to the DR and asked to treat my asthma better. i was not getting enough air with the rescue inhaler and I told the PA that i couldn't get under a 9 minute mile with my lungs, but the rest of my body could do it. She started off with a laugh, a nice but slightly overweight lady, and said that people in their 40's shouldnt worry about that. Well I said I was concerned about it because I was more than capable of running an 8 minute mile, but I wasnt pushing for my old times in the mid 7's. She did then give me some help and my next appointment with my regular person (who is a runner) was easier. Just because the majority of people will not run even 9 minute miles does not mean that i should accept wheezing in my exercise. And here too, just because I can hold a job and function is not enough when my education and work history says I am capable of quite a bit more but there is an issue that may be what is in my way.
the appointment is still upsetting me 2 days later. Basically I brought in the test results and the counselor asked me questions and about 3 questions in she started telling me it didn't sound like that diagnoses. Then she suggested other things that I disagreed with. Finaly she told me that she could not do meds that day, well I had not asked for them and if at all possible I would avoid that but I really want to feel better. Just because I am not living on the streets does not mean I don't need support.
The major problems in understanding seem to be that I was a very informed patient and that many of my symptoms are low because of work I have done and 25 years of meditation. It reminds me so much of the time I went to the DR and asked to treat my asthma better. i was not getting enough air with the rescue inhaler and I told the PA that i couldn't get under a 9 minute mile with my lungs, but the rest of my body could do it. She started off with a laugh, a nice but slightly overweight lady, and said that people in their 40's shouldnt worry about that. Well I said I was concerned about it because I was more than capable of running an 8 minute mile, but I wasnt pushing for my old times in the mid 7's. She did then give me some help and my next appointment with my regular person (who is a runner) was easier. Just because the majority of people will not run even 9 minute miles does not mean that i should accept wheezing in my exercise. And here too, just because I can hold a job and function is not enough when my education and work history says I am capable of quite a bit more but there is an issue that may be what is in my way.