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Zoebird
3-10-12, 4:05am
DH is finding himself in grief.

One of his childhood friends was moved to hospice care -- metastacized melanoma got to his brain. He received treatment and was doing well in Feb on his 40th birthday, but has declined rapidly since. It's basically a vigil now.

MIL has circled the wagons and taken responsibility for the young man's father. He's 83, and lives at an assisted living facility. She'll be providing rides to him to get to/from hospice to visit his son. DH is already writing a beautiful piece for him -- with all of his memories of the two of them together (DH and his friend) as well as those that he remembers of his friend and his friend's father. My MIL will be providing old photographs that she has of the two boys together.

DH is also attempting to set up a skype session. His friend cannot communicate, but smiles and seems to recognize people. He also can yes/no through blinking or hand squeezing. We don't know if it will be possible, but another mutual childhood friend is trying to work it out using his iPad.

DH's friend also leaves behind a wife and two young daughters (7 and 10). His MIL (wife's mother) arrives soon, and she'll be keeping the girls structure going and making sure they visit their dad after school and before bed time and such. His wife will be staying with him at hospice as much as she can.

Most of the childhood friends have visited -- many were there for the party in Feb, and since then many have driven to the hospice daily after work to see him. He's been there for about 4 days now.

At this point, it's just a vigil.

DH is very sad in a lot of ways. He is -- of course -- deeply sad for his friend, a young man like himself. He is also very sad for his wife and daughters -- he feels that he would be hard pressed to leave us, to make peace with doing so, and can only imagine that his friend may have the same anguish. He feels sad for his friend's father, who saw the loss of his wife to cancer 20 years ago, and sees now also the loss of his son to cancer. DH cannot imagine the heartbreak of that loss either -- no matter how old you get, that man is still your boy: your baby boy, your little boy, that big boy, that teenager, that young man, still and always your boy.

I only met him once. He seemed a nice young man. I am sorry for my husband's coming loss. I'm sorry for his friend's family and friends grief.

sweetana3
3-10-12, 7:18am
It is wonderful how his family has pulled together. We went thru something similiar with a young (38) man who was a great manager in my office. Hospice and his mother were so wonderful together. I still remember Tracey and his smile. It was a sad time but part of life. Your husband is doing a good thing.

mtnlaurel
3-10-12, 8:39am
That's so heartbreaking. You all will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Kat
3-10-12, 9:02am
That's so heartbreaking. You all will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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So sorry to hear about this, zoebird. May all those who love this gentleman find peace and comfort during this very difficult time. You seem like such a caring person; I know you will do anything and everything you can to help your DH through this.

(((zoebird)))

Rosemary
3-10-12, 9:11am
So very sad, Zoebird. Wishing you all peace and the strength of family and friends.

Anne Lee
3-10-12, 9:30am
We lost a member of our church last night to cancer. She and I weren't close but we were friendly. It's rough to lose someone at any time but it's really hard when it's too soon and there is so much unfinished in their lives. Thinking of your DH and all involved.

iris lily
3-10-12, 9:34am
A death like this, a young person leaving family and young children, is the saddest thing.

Azure
3-10-12, 10:47am
I'm so sorry.

fidgiegirl
3-10-12, 12:26pm
I am also sad for your DH that he won't be able to go see his dear friend in person. Thinking warm thoughts for all involved. Hopefully he will pass without much pain.

danna
3-10-12, 1:57pm
Wishing you all peace at his sad time....

redfox
3-10-12, 2:13pm
Oh my dear... Hugs all 'round. I have two friends with brain cancer in treatment right now... They are both likely to die this year.

Tradd
3-10-12, 2:17pm
Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that. Peace for you all...

Stella
3-10-12, 2:54pm
Keeping you all in my prayers Zoebird!

Bronxboy
3-10-12, 3:17pm
I'm so sorry, Zoebird. I believe your husband is doing the right thing in being engaged with his friend and his family. The only advice I can offer is for him to try to involve others and not take the whole burden himself.

Two of a close group of 18 or 20 childhood friends I grew up with are now gone; both died suddenly in their 40s, not far apart. At the time I was in a busy and struggling phase of life, and regret not being engaged through their funerals and aftermath.

Zoebird
3-10-12, 4:42pm
Thanks all.

We are far away, he won't be travelling back for the funerals, but he is sending a number of great messages. He had the idea today to write a short book (with pictures) about what their dad was like as a young boy. The funny stories that they had and the jokes and the games that they played.

My MIL has not only found all of the pictures of the two boys together plus a group shot of their core group of friends, but also all of the shared drawings that DH and his friend did together from age 5 to age 14. She'd saved them (what doesn't she save?), and he thought he would also pass this on to his friend's girls with some commentary about their age, what they were into, and so on. His mom is handy with a scanner, so she's going to scan them in for him, and he'll send them along to the girls mother.

He's going to work on these things during this week, instead of his normal writing, and we are still trying to see if he'll get a skype session with his friend.

And, I'm going to a yoga meeting, and DH and DS will be going out to play baseball at the beach. Even in the bardo, life goes on.

redfox
3-10-12, 5:06pm
Thanks all... Even in the bardo, life goes on.

This pretty much sums up the incredible journey that is life and all it's joys & sorrows. From the perch of nearly 57, let me say that this paradox only deepens as one moves through life. As Zorba the Greek said, "I've got it all! The full catastrophe!"

Zoebird
3-12-12, 4:30pm
DH's friend passed yesterday -- in the early evening where he lived -- without any pain or discomfort. The service is set for Thursday, and my ILs are all sorted to go.

DH is working on a blog about his friend, including some boyhood pictures that his mother found. It's very cool. I'll link it, if you are interested.

Zoebird
3-12-12, 5:53pm
blog post: For Scott (http://holyembersofdreams.blogspot.co.nz/2012/03/for-scott.html)

redfox
3-12-12, 6:24pm
Wow. Very very tender. Prayers to all his friends, and especially his wife & children.

rose
3-12-12, 6:28pm
I'm sorry. So sad.

Zoebird
3-12-12, 8:25pm
Thank you. The blog is making the rounds of his friends and school-mates. Everyone has been saying nice things about it, too. That makes him feel good.

It really is a lovely blog. He has a knack for these things. When a friend of his father passed away, he wrote (http://holyembersofdreams.blogspot.co.nz/2008/01/paths-of-devotion.html) a really lovely piece for him, too.

He has a lot of tenderness, a lot of sweetness.

Zoebird
3-16-12, 7:13pm
Funeral was today (in the US), and DH's mother went. She said it was a very nice service, and gave DH the play-by-play. His childhood friends were glad to see her, and she was 'chuffed' that DH was given lots of compliments on his writing that so many people had read.

Kat
3-20-12, 6:17am
Thanks for sharing the link to that beautiful tribute! :-)