Zoe Girl
5-28-12, 12:05pm
Hi all, I have been plugging along in the career arena. I am still frustrated with the gaps between being seen as intelligent and qualified but consistently underemployed. But I think I have managed that outside the workplace other than making sure I know about any opportunities. Some opportunities are caught up in regulations, for example I am not qualified for any early childhood positions because my degree does not include early childhood and my experience was in a private home daycare that they will not recognize. Our licensing specialist actually went back to school and through an entire course to add early childhood. Other positions I have been told to keep watching the district website by my supervisor.
I got my end of year review and I didn't react so well. I have had some (again) big issues in my personal life. It has been an emotional roller coaster. I have 2 supervisors currently because I took over supervision of 3 schools for a person who went 'on leave' (and cleaned up the job she didn't do). I had to email them to tell them I would not be at the end of year party due to some urgent family matters. The new one asked if I was okay, and has since then checked in on me a few times. J, the one I have had all year, didn't ask anything. I have heard through the grapevine that she really hopes I come back to her side of the programs next year. I have not gotten that vibe.
We went through the review and I struggled with my emotions, which I am embarrassed about because I got 'meets expectations' (3)in 5 areas and a very high score in the last area of teamwork. Initiative had a different definition than I would have thought and so my supervisor went with the written definition which put me in the mid-range. Basically the 5 out of 6 areas were 3's because I have big ideas and creativity but I struggle with all the details. Communication was a 3 since I don't get everybody on the list, but I tend to handle the difficult conversations well. This year there have been no potentially violent situations. Still I got fine scores with no problem areas and I was still very upset, I ended up telling this supervisor briefly what was happening and she suggested I pray (nicely).
A big part of this is that she is about 20 years younger, and I really am not sure how much I respect her opinion. I also struggle watching others much younger who simply earn more. I would take her job in a minute and people would not be quitting. I am trying to focus on that she has not made a good impression on several people above her, there are staff who are not willing to come back and work for her, and at one staff meeting I was not at she lost her temper in a bad way about 2 minutes into the meeting. As I said up front the opportunities are limited and right now it is in the hands of others where I end up next year. I put in my request for the side of the program that J is on and the position was already filled by exisiting staff. So I may end up working for her no matter what. I want to bring up some issues and clear the air with her however I am still very emotional due to other things. I am looking at medication to get through this right now.
I got my end of year review and I didn't react so well. I have had some (again) big issues in my personal life. It has been an emotional roller coaster. I have 2 supervisors currently because I took over supervision of 3 schools for a person who went 'on leave' (and cleaned up the job she didn't do). I had to email them to tell them I would not be at the end of year party due to some urgent family matters. The new one asked if I was okay, and has since then checked in on me a few times. J, the one I have had all year, didn't ask anything. I have heard through the grapevine that she really hopes I come back to her side of the programs next year. I have not gotten that vibe.
We went through the review and I struggled with my emotions, which I am embarrassed about because I got 'meets expectations' (3)in 5 areas and a very high score in the last area of teamwork. Initiative had a different definition than I would have thought and so my supervisor went with the written definition which put me in the mid-range. Basically the 5 out of 6 areas were 3's because I have big ideas and creativity but I struggle with all the details. Communication was a 3 since I don't get everybody on the list, but I tend to handle the difficult conversations well. This year there have been no potentially violent situations. Still I got fine scores with no problem areas and I was still very upset, I ended up telling this supervisor briefly what was happening and she suggested I pray (nicely).
A big part of this is that she is about 20 years younger, and I really am not sure how much I respect her opinion. I also struggle watching others much younger who simply earn more. I would take her job in a minute and people would not be quitting. I am trying to focus on that she has not made a good impression on several people above her, there are staff who are not willing to come back and work for her, and at one staff meeting I was not at she lost her temper in a bad way about 2 minutes into the meeting. As I said up front the opportunities are limited and right now it is in the hands of others where I end up next year. I put in my request for the side of the program that J is on and the position was already filled by exisiting staff. So I may end up working for her no matter what. I want to bring up some issues and clear the air with her however I am still very emotional due to other things. I am looking at medication to get through this right now.