SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) in the Summer
Does anyone else get this? I'm really in a funk right now. I've definitely noticed it in years past, even when I lived in Michigan. Just complete, utter exhaustion and inertia, an inertia that is REALLy hard to break. Including the extreme lack of motivation to do much of anything at all (a big one), some sadness, and anger at myself for feeling this way.
In years past, I used to be able to gloss over it by being busy at work, or busy in the yard, fabricating jewelry or playing my guitars. Most of that stuff I used to do I cannot do anymore. Working in the yard is out for now, as it is just too damn hot here in the desert. Because I am allergic to most bug bites, I have to be completely covered up IF I decide to try and work outside. I just cannot make myself get up early to do it before it gets hot either. Not going to happen. If I have something on my schedule, like running into town to do errands, that helps. Working my one day a week helps a little. It's just weird to have all this time to do anything I want but I have absolutely no motivation to do anything at all. Sometimes I just lay down on the bed and stare at the ceiling for god knows how long. And all I want is to be left alone by everyone, including the spouse.
Everything is still kind of stressful right now with the spouse getting laid off. Supposedly my Medicaid will start on August 1 but since I had to report his unemployment income he started getting, I think that will be enough to kick me right off Medicaid. Only when I get the denial letter from that office will I be able to sign up for the ACA.
Ugh, I just want SOME ENERGY back!