Great story... It's amazing what that inner voice can do for you!! I LOVE that your voice was so clear in telling you "this is not enough." Too bad more people don't listen to that particular message when they are stuck.
I dodged a similar bullet. I had a very, very close friend of the opposite sex. When I was in high school, he was my best friend. We kept in touch all through college. When he got a steady girlfriend, I was a little jealous. So my last year of college I felt our relationship shifting and apparently he felt it, too. The week after I graduated he took me out in his '48 Plymouth, and told me "I have a friend I went to for advice, and he said 'sometimes the fence has to come to an end.'"
My knees were shaking... and as Fate would have it, I had just met DH a week and half earlier, and we had had a first date, but I moved back home after graduating, an hour away from where DH lived. I had no assurance I would have a second date with him.
But my instinct told me to say to my good friend, "I'm sorry, but I feel like I still have some wild oats to sow." He was disappointed (and so was my mother, frankly), but I have never regretted trusting my gut that DH and I would somehow be together.
