Originally Posted by
catherine
This isn't a "rave" but definitely not a "rant" and definitely not deserving of its own thread, so I'm parking it here...
I have had recurring dreams during my life--and one of them is, I always have a recurring baby dream. The first one came about when I became a market researcher, in which my prospective boss literally delivered my baby, and IRL I became a market researcher, mentored by that boss.
In later years, whenever I was at a crossroads, I would have baby dreams...
So, I was intrigued when last night I had another baby dream, which I won't go into in detail because it's always so boring to listen to other peoples' dreams. But it leaves me wondering... why? The feelings in this dream ranged from interest, to fear, to desperation, to search for relief.
I'm connecting it to the fact that my work slowed down considerably this year. I always book 20 projects a year; I'm down 50%. I always average a certain revenue number; that number is down 60%. I am now worried about my future. I have lain awake nights pondering what I should do if the work totally dries up? Do I continue on this path, or do I "birth a new baby"?
I, unfortunately, am not ready to retire. So I'm searching for that elusive baby. I have already decided to update my webpage (my brother owns a website business and would do it for free) and do some active selling (I've always been the proverbial Honda salesman, who doesn't have to sell. The sales have just come). But I'm also exploring other income-generating ideas that may be more fulfilling, even if they earn me less... like searching for grants with environmental market research projects. I've considered writing a cultural/social history of life in the late 20th century, targeted to us Baby Boomers. (maybe that's the "baby"?)
I wish I knew what that "baby" was!