more good advice, thanks!
the funny thing is becoming ill has in some ways simplified my life. I cannot drive. I basically only leave the house for medical reasons. I'm not spending much money because I am not out and about and tempted to spend. I am no longer wasting time on people who just bring me down because they won't be hurt if I say, "can't see you today, it's a bad day." I rarely use FB because I just cannot keep up and just use it to get messages from friends and message them back. Last month, after an MD appt, I went into a discount store to get a trash can, I realized that was my first shopping trip since January! I spent $7, lol. I am living on so much less, but I need less so it's balancing out ok-ish. I cannot put money in retirement vehicles anymore and that feels so wrong after so many years of doing that. And I should not be doing that anyway, I need a big EF for possible high medical bills. I am accepting help with some costs from my parents, like some groceries. After a few trips, I give my cc to my dad and tell him it's my turn to pay. I don't like that, I hate accepting help but they can do it and want to. I don't have to buy work clothes, don't even know office politics anymore. I miss the actual work, but I'll find something to do to serve once I get better.
It is very strange that dealing with 2 medically complex things that have completely changed my life and not for the better, I can see ways in which dealing with this has changed who I am and that might not be a bad thing






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