With simply not enough beds and ventilators to go around, our only choice is to triage. I often wonder what else people would have us do? We can’t pull ventilators out of thin air. We are doing the best with what we have. All broader discussions of ethics just becomes a moot point when you’re on the front lines.

In other news I was tested for Covid yesterday because I have a few symptoms. It feels pretty much like an upper respiratory infection that I’ve had many times before, but following our hospital guidelines I got tested and I’m home until the test results and my symptoms clear.

The one big take away from the last four months for me, is the acceptance of uncertainty and the acceptance that we all die sometime.

Arizona is now the epicenter of this thing globally, and I live in our largest city, Phoenix, and I work at our large public safety net hospital. So I’m at the center of the center. Other than I don’t work In ICUs, as I work in behavioral health. However we have two units full of Covid positive behavioral health patients and I’m the manager of one of them.